So, this is my blog…

So I know that sanctification is a process and that the spiritual life is equally about the journey as it is about the destination, but I must say the journey part is so hard for me. Patience is not a gift that I possess and most of the time I would rather just “be there” instead of “travel there.” I tend to rush in everything I do. I am reminded of this every evening, as I lay in my bed hoping my baby will sleep through the night and wishing she was already at the stage where she did with no problem. I have to remind myself to enjoy her now because in two years I will be wishing she was an infant again. This part of me is getting worse as I get older and it scares me. I do not want to be that person who wakes up feeling like they missed the whole thing because they couldn’t wait to get to somewhere else. Is this making sense? I thought I would grow out of this childlike character, but I haven’t.

I do not like New Years resolutions, but if I was going to focus on one thing this year it would be to pay more attention to what God is doing NOW, instead of rushing to see what He will do tomorrow. If you know me well, feel free to challenge me with this.

So my husband, Chris, loves gadgets and gizmo’s, and basically anything that Apple Inc. comes out with. I however, am easily intimidated by complex gadgets, and when the iphone came out I was not a fan. I thought it was bulky and unnecessary. Chris wanted one badly and I thought they were dumb and made fun of his burning desire to own one. I find it funny that the moment you start making fun of someone else’s desires you all of a sudden start having that same desire. This happens to me a lot.

I apologized to Chris for making fun of him and then proceeded to explain why me having an iphone would benefit us both…

It worked, Friday night Beckey and I were hanging out and our husbands came home with a HUGE surprise, iphones for us both!!!

As a stay at home mom I know that the iphone is unnecessary, but because it is awesome… i don’t care. And now my husband can live out his iphone desire through me.

Thanks Chris… you are the best. Thank you for loving me enough to buy me an iphone.

As some of you may know I have a baby. She is very precious, but we are having a hard time with the sleeping through the night thing. I have it down, but she still insists on waking up at least once. I guess I should not be complaining because I know there are mothers out there whose babies wake up way more, but for me this is the most challenging thing of motherhood. I now know that I NEED sleep and I always have. I know people that can function with 4-6 hours of sleep, but I however need 9-12 hours.

I have read the books and she is on a schedule, but my patience is running out and I may be going crazy. So for the mothers out there, do you have any suggestions, words of wisdom, or anything that may help me cope with this dilemma?

I recently learned that I have spent most of my life telling myself that I do not have any expectations in order to avoid dissappointment. To my dismay, I find myself dissappointed a lot. Especially with myself. My expectations for this blog are that it will be a great channel for me to put words to my thoughts and feelings and allow others to enter into my life as well… that is if you want to. This is by far one of those stretching events because I actually hate writing, especially for others to read.
I will do my best to be interesting and entertaining, but be confident that you will always get what is true about me.